it was a very hard frost last night!

had a call from one of my closest friends last evening. she has been recalled for investigations following her mamogram. she goes on monday. she is terrified. we both work at the hospice and as a consequence our minds tend to make the leap from possible diagnosis to death with nothing inbetween.

she has spoken with other colleagues who have been down this road and has gained good support from them - but how can you prepare for what may well happen.... impossible. the fact that we both attended julia's funeral 2 weeks ago is not lost on either of us. please no - not veronica as well............. i do not know how i will be if i loose her too. sounds selfish - but i love these people.

still, veronica says that if the diagnosis is positive, she is going to be really selfish and do all the things she wants to do and sod the rest. she would love to go to nz with her son, so i have volunteered to show her around......... if necessary we will cram 20 years into the blink of an eye.

i am going to keep everything crossed for a 'mistake' in the mamogram - they do err on the side of caution (thank goodness) so there is plenty of hope.

i'm off to de-frost the chicken's water coz i bet it is frozen solid. then i shall have to spend time defrosting my hands - always a painful experience.

they have been apple collecting since it got light- i do not envy them today.................